My inquiry this morning doing my morning pages was am I capable of love?

May I sit with you God and have a conversation. I am not a good conversationalist. I don’t know what to talk about. Can I just listen to what you have to tell me, share with me? You know my heart, my mind, my soul.

 Trapped 
 Let it out
 The core of who I am
 My essence 
 My being
 
 Heaviness
 My Chest 
 My Throat
 
 Is this my soul?
 It feels empty
 Floating in the darkness
 Waiting
 Waiting for what?
 I don’t know
 
Stillness
 Heaviness lifts
 
 Light rises on the horizon
 Streaming on the darkness
 No! darkness come back
 
 The darkness is my cloak 
 It is old
 It is comfortable
 It is what I know

Morning Pages MMees 1/6/2021