Retrieving the lost and/or stolen parts of my soul has been something I have been exploring for quite a while now. I even went as far as having a consultation with a Shaman who indicated that I am a candidate for this.
I was told by my guides to wait. So I put it on the back burner.
In the interim, I was directed to join a bereavement group (our last session was last week). I found one on Meetup and without any hesitation I joined. The Universe had my back, why do I ever doubt this?!?!? The group was run by two wonderful, kind, and loving facilitators. One of them is Baika Heaton. What was really interesting is her gifts. I did not know this at the time I joined. She offers Shamanic Healings, Transpersonal Hypnotherapy and Brainspotting.
I didn’t think about any of this until just this week. Once again the thought of calling back the lost fragments of my soul has come to the forefront. In speaking with Baika I found myself not sure of which modality would be best for me.
I think my indecisiveness is I’m not sure what it is I’m trying to “cure”. There is something that is blocking me from connecting to my inner self, to the Divine, fear is probably it. This has almost become an “obsession” for me. What is it that is blocking me?!?! Why?!?!? I don’t feel whole. Through my spiritiual journey these past years I have continued to feel that there is something missing, something is trying to come out but can’t.
It reminds me of a dream I had a few years back that had to do with my childhood. This is an excerpt from a “book” I have been writing on and off these past few years.
Raven closed her eyes and followed the crow’s soothing voice. She found herself in a very small room. She kept trying to get out but her stepmother kept putting her back in. Raven tried numerous times to become free but found herself back in the confined space. Face your fear, cried the crow, face your fear!!! As Raven was being pushed back into the room she stood her ground and yelled, NO, I will no longer be under your control. Her younger sister joined her and stood up to her own mother and said, here, Raven, I am opening up the door so you can come and go as you please. When Raven stepped through the portal she was amazed at what she saw, such a beautiful large space, filled with love and light.
I am going to do a mini session of Brainspotting. I will keep you posted!!!